This isn't supposed to be a brag or an insult. this is my OPINION.

i am now officially a thomasian nursing student. Should i feel lucky about it? Actually, it had been almost a month and a half since i've become a thomasian. Well, whatever. I met my blockmates, which are... idk. i can't describe them much. I dont want to make judgments YET, since i dont know them much YET.

I feel uneasy being a thomasian nursing student. Im not really proud to be one, unlike my classmates. I dont want to become a nurse, neither do i like to become a thomasian. Nah. Not that i dont like to be one, i just dont think i'd be happy as one. OKAY :| dont makle conclusions yet, i have my reasons.

first is, dont wanna be a nurse. I never dreamt of becoming a nurse. I know i'd be able to express much of myself when i enrolled in engineering or architecture, instead of a nurse. I just feel like, if i become a nurse, i have my limitations. Ya know, limit on the job done. But if i become engineer or whatever, i can express myself more, and dont have certain boundaries that i could not pass on.

secondly, i dont want to become a thomasian. I'm not really choosy, but i dont know. i dont feel proud now that im a thomasian. It feels like it's easy to pass the USTET. not that i'm bragging about my intelligence or what, it's just that, because of the university's population, it feels like even those students who are not 'that' intellegent could be admitted, unlike in Ateneo. Maybe i'm just being "affected" by my Atenean boyfriend's perception. I dont like DLSU either, it seems like everyone could study there. If you have money and ask for reconsideration, ALAS! you'll be admitted. Well, whatever. I'm now enrolled as a thomasian nursing student... it's too late to express these sentiments.

So tomorrow, i'll have my exams in psychology, chem lab, TFN and english. Because i'm not inspired and i dont even like what i'm doing, how the hell could i focus on studying? Maybe i'm being too "whatever" but this is what my mind speaks out. :| and actually, I'M HATING IT. i can't still accept the fact that im a thomasian nursing student. :| DAMN it.